Entilted

So what are we really entitled to. Because now days it seems like we should have everything our heart desires. I admit that it would be nice to drive the hottest car, live in a big custom home, have my closet full of the latest styles and have money never be an issue. Lets be honest money does not make life happier just easier to some degree.
But here is the thing we are really not entitled to anything. Everything takes work. Raising the children, being married, staying in shape, cooking a healthy meal,keeping up on what is going on in the world, being a good friend,and the list could go on.
So here is what I have been thinking a lot about. This last weeekend Jeremy and I cleaned out another garage. It took us from 9:30 - 5:00 to finish. It was work but it was well worth the final result. Now everyday I go to get in my car and walk in the garage it makes me HAPPY. Then on Sunday I got to have my family and some of my brothers and sisters over. We made dinner together, feasted on the words of our leaders,and spent time in the service of one another. When night came around I got to give my kids loves and kisses to put them to bed. I love lovin on these kids.
So here is what I am entitled to: I am entitled to work hard so I can feel and see the sweet rewards that work can bring, I am entitled to serve others because there is no greater joy that can be found then in the "service of your fellow beings" and I am entitled to love much because that is what life is all about.
So entitled, I am really not entitled to anything but a chance to work hard, serve others and love everyone, so maybe one day I can return to live with my Savior again.

You know when you are getting older when you walk to the garage to find something you need and the minute you open the door you have no idea what you went there for. Or when you walk to the kids room to put back something and walk out with something else and the thing you were suppose to put back is still in your hands.

I would not worry about these forgetful thoughts if they did not happen everyday multiple times. I am only 34 I thought things like this happened when you were 50. I think I need to invest in some memory enhancers NATURAL drug. The reason I am writing this post is because less than an hour ago I put my 2 year old to bed and as I laid there I thought, I have not updated the blog for awhile. So I thought all about what I wanted to write and how I was going to say it. But here is where it went bye bye.
I walked out of the bedroom to the computer but then remembered that Kenzie math homework needed correcting, dinner needed to be cleaned up, 3 text to answer,a brother that showed up to visit, and family home evening to think about.
So needless to say I have no idea what I was going to write about and I am not kidding. I can not even remotely remember what it was about. Multi-tasking use to be my thing but I think I am starting to question that strength. I am sure I will remember at 2 in the morning as I lay awake because I have had 4 kids and I do not know if I will ever have a normal night of sleep again.

Why I love Sundays!

Why are Sundays so wonderful? Let me count the ways. It starts in the morning I feel no pressure Sunday morning. I do not have to get up to exercise (which usually begins at 5:30 am), no lunch to make for the kids, no where to be until 11:30 (church),I can cook my kids favorite breakfast velvet crumb cake, can lay in bed with my sweet husband and talk, love when the kids all come in to get in bed with us, love to watch Jeremy play and make the kids laugh. These are just the morning reasons why I love Sunday.
In the afternoon I get to attend church where all my children are fed spiritually while I get to have rare moments of truly diving into the scriptures. I love my gospel doctrine teacher; he helps build my testimony each week. I also love to attend relief society and see the incredible woman who love the Lord more than anything. Not to mention all the beautiful music we get to sing. There is something about a whole congregation singing praises to our Savior.
Then home to make dinner. A good dinner where we try to make something new and different. These last two months I have had the blessing of living with my parents. I know I am 34 living with my parents, we will leave that for another blog. But I have loved making Sunday dinner with my parents and the gospel discussions that we get to enjoy. Sunday dinners have fed me both temporally and spiritually . Then the feast, because Sunday is the day that food has no calories and I get to make my favorite chocolate chip cookies.
Now time for games or movies with the family. Tonight we had family home evening and played concentration with the kids. After that is was on to Mormon messages. I think I am going to make this a Sunday tradition. The kids loved them and we watched them for about 45 minutes. Now I am getting to spend some quality time with my hubby before the busy weeks starts all over again.
The Lord knew we would need a day of rest. I love my Savior and with each passing day I see how he blesses my life with simple things like a Sunday.

Sick UGUG

HATE BEING SICK!!!

So two weeks ago actually 17 days ago Addie got up in the middle of the night because she needed to throw up. She was laying next to us, her usually sleeping spot, sat up and said I am going to throw up. Jeremy jumped out of bed and ran her to the toilet ( i did not even know he was awake). Just in time, she threw up about 6 times. It also happened to be out anniversary HAAPY ANNIVERSARY TO US. Next day Kenzie fell asleep on me in church, never happens. Another one bites the dust. 6 days later they are finally looking alive. That was Sunday night, Addie starts complaining about her ear. Away to the minute clinic we go, the second time in to weeks for her ears. Slam dunk swimmers ear and an ear infection. Z-pack for the next week. Everyone a little sluggish but living. Saturday night Berlynn throws up. Oh No here we go again. Sunday miss church and by Monday night Addie is trowing up again. Monday night Jeremy puts on long sleeve shirt, a blanket and turns on the fire. Never happens,Tuesday morning misses work for the frost time in 13 years of marriage never happens. Addie, Berlynn and Dad all need moms constant care. Tuesday night mom feels like crud, i know it is coming. Who is going to take care of all the sickies? By now I want to tear my eyes out and take my head off because it is so full of gunk. Please say this is the 24 hour flu. This mom can not be sick any longer than that. I just wanted to leave myself a reminder of why I hate being sick.

Disneyland in the Rain!!

So last night I came up with this novel idea to go to Disneyland in the rain. I thought maybe it would not be crowded because it was raining. NOT I swear what the heck, you would never know we are in a recession if you saw Disneyland on a Friday night in the rain. At 8:45 my kids decided they wanted to ride BIG THUNDER and at 8:50 it was pouring rain. So we had the long walk back to the car. Because we are Meldrums (part Pugmire too) we always walk the half mile instead of take the tram (the tram is always a long line).

As I watched my 11 year old push my 5 year old in the stroller. My husband carry my 8 year old because she was so wet she could barley walk, not to mention when she wore her hood she kept running into things. I carried the 2 year old, who would pull her rain coat over her head and look and me every once in awhile and say mommy you getting wet. Who do you think enjoyed the walk the most?

As you can see Addie fell asleep in the pouring rain as Dawson ran with her in the stroller. And that's right her rain coat is a black trash bag that worked like a charm. Berlynn on the other hand ran with me in my arms and as you can see from first picture it had been a long night.

Love to Be Married

HaPpY to be MaRrIeD

This last month my Hubby and I celebrated 13 years together. I am so grateful I never have to go back to the dating world. The games, wondering when he will call, wondering if he really is just dating you, and the list could go on but why!!

Here are the pros to being married:

You get to have one of these (a family)

He loves you even when you look like this

He takes a REAL interest in what you love to do:

He loves you when you cry over nothing, he can make you laugh when you want to cry.

He is the dad you dreamed your kids would have,

he knows the true meaning of princess and how to treat you like one.

He works hard for you and your kids and he loves the Lord more than anything in the world.

These are just some of the reasons I never want to go back to the single world again. I am very grateful that I have eternity to spend with my

BEST Friend.

So how come I can never keep up with this blogging thing!! The blogging world is crazy and I am such a virgin to it.

We had a great weekend. Family is what it is ALL about. I love getting together with my brothers and sisters. All we do is laugh. This brings me to my dilemma SHOULD I HAVE A 5TH KID?????? I know really this is a husband and wife decision but I am to emotional to decided. I know 4 kids is a good number but 5 might be better. At least that is what the pencil said.

I am trying to decide if I really want to go back to the endless sleepless nights and if I really have enough energy to do it. My problem is I see a lot of pros and not enough cons. It is all about delayed gratification because when we all get together I love that there are 5 of us and would not care if there were more. The world is such crazy place right now protesting every where, unrest in the world, people living in poverty, and a corrupt government that would rather stick their heads in the sand (Wisconsin) than face the music. And you know the sad thing, I live in a Mormon Bubble.

Should this mormon bubble add one more to this world of chaos????

Berlynn prayer Hugs

So just a few weeks ago Berlynn said her very first prayer. It was so cute. She sat in Dawson's arms and he helped her with what to say. She did a great job and at the end he gave her a hug and she then proceeded to run and give every one hugs. Know every time she says the prayer we all get a hug. Love these kids!!!!!!!

Once again I will ATTEMPT to keep up on the blog. Jeremy and I have moved for the 9th time in our 13 year marriage. We are back in the OC and living in Yorba Linda. It is somewhat surreal to live where you grew up, not something I ever thought I would do. But then again why plan your life out because the only constant thing is CHANGE. We have had a lot of change. The kids are great they seem to make friends where ever they go. They have taught me so much about appreciating the small things in life. Being a mom is crazy but we all know I love chaos. Jeremy loves his job and I love seeing him happy. Dawson is sweet and i hope he stays 11 forever. MacKenzie imagination in never ending and I love to see her creations. Addie never sits still flips over everything and spends equal time on her head. Berlynn vocabulary is growing and we all love to watch her grow. I spent most of my time in the car and park, but I am learning to love both.

Last week my Gardner's found and killed a baby rattle snake in our back yard. SCARY!!!!! We could tell that it had something in its stomach and that something was still alive after the snake was dead.GROSS. I thought it was a mouse, there was no way that a baby rattle snake killed a rat. Dawson swore it was a rat. So I came home the next day to find that Dawson had cut open the snake to prove me wrong. It was a large RAT that was whole. OMG my kids are crazy they thought it was sooo fun, that is definitely their dad in them. Lets just say that the bunnies have had a long nap in their cage. The kids are too scared to let them out.
This last week had the chance to see our good friend's Derek and Denise. We love them and our kids play sooo good together.

The kids are truly FISH. They could swim all day everyday. It is crazy. Addie became a great swimmer this year. Thank heavens for mom she is soooo fast I have a hard time keeping up. It is so fun to see your kids learn new things.

One of the kids favorite things of the Summer was the two water parks we visited. The daredevils tried everything and we had so much fun. They also loved going to the beach with the fam. The picture of Dad has to take the cake. Love the headphones dad, Elley pose does not do her justice she strikes those poses well. Take notes girls of how it is done. I love the beach, cheap entertainment(if gas was not $3 dollars a gallon and it takes a whole tank to get there). Summer was to short and so the rat race begins.

I have gotten into my old habit of never posting. I am trying. Life is busy but good. The kids are all doing good. Dawson continues to love soccer and has been reading to me all about the Pros. I can actually tell you about them now. Mackenzie is in art, dance and soccer and loves all of them. She is a great babysitter for Berlynn. Addie oh Addie. Still continues to make me laugh but I can never quite figure her out. Today I brought her the wrong bathing suit so she swam in her Snow White underwear. She is her own person.

It has been a crazy summer. School starts in 2 weeks and I feel like Summer just started. Maybe it is the 4 kids that start to make life fly bye. Berlynn is 7 months old in a week and I feel like she just joined the family. She is sitting up really good and is always singing in her sleep. She loves her toys which is a big surprise (none of the others have liked their toys much). I also have 3 great babysitters, they are all really good with her. It really takes the pressure off of me when I know they can handle her for a little while.

We just got back from Lake Powell. The kids had so much FUN. They love everything about it there. They love to swim, hike, ski, play games, tube and Dawson and Mackenzie took their first plunge off a 35 foot cliff. Let's just say I was scared to death. What were my parents thinking letting us jump from all of those cliffs? Mackenzie got up on 2 ski's and Dawson learned to salomon. He got right up, Oh to be young again. I think Addie favorite thing was the slide. She did it form all directions on her tummy, back, and made tons of trains(I think she also ate a 100 popsicles). The night we got home was MacKenzie dance recital. She did great and looked so cute in her coustume. I love watching them grow up I hope they stop at 11.

Another beautiful day at Newport Beach. Getting to the beach is such a pain in the bum. All the towels, toys, Boigie boards and now my kids love to ride the waves in inner tubes (try fitting 4 of those in your car. The first time we took them I tried blowing them up when we got there bad idea I was lightheaded the rest of the day). Once you get there is is awesome and I never want to leave. The kids always have so much fun.

This is two days in row for me, I am really proud of myself. I decided to write something whenever I can and make blogging like a mini journal (whom am I kidding the only journal I will keep and lets see if I make it past a week). I am learning to live as a single mom and it makes me really grateful that I at least have Jerm to talk to at night. Today the kids swam with their cousins at Grandma's house. They always have so much fun with them. Each one has a little friend and in a freaky way they all are kind of alike. Dawson and Spencer play sports and talk about the exoskeleton of a spider, Kayden and Kenzie are characters form Harry Potter and make wands out of Popsicle sticks, and Ashton and Addie high five each other as they push the other kids down the slide. They are sooo funny to watch. I hope they can keep the good relationships they have with them because they are all such good kids.
Berlynn continues to be the HAPPY baby. She is always smiling, I love it. She does this thing where she will just sit a try to blow bubbles. I can hear her in the car blowing bubbles and by the time I take her out she is soaked, but always happy. Babies are so sweet.
As for me I mowed the lawn,(trying to beat the Gardener that was working on the lawn next to me I LOST) weeded forever, and played taxi driver. Life is good!!!

The 4th of July in Park city is awesome. We have been going there for the last 4 years and love it. It was beautiful there this year the wild flowers were amazing, it was so green, and we even enjoyed a thunder storm. Something us Californian's never really see. The horse back riding was great the kids loved every minute of it, I was a little nervous to put them on by themselves but they thought it was sooo cool they got to ride solo.

They spent day at the clubhouse swimming and Dawson played golf with his papa everyday. We spent time with the cousins which my kids can never get enough of, our cousin's ROCK. We also went to the water park where Addie could ride every ride and she did. Never even blinking an eye even we mom let her go on the biggest drop there. I let her go first thinking that would be better, she made to the bottom smiling. I thought it must not have been that scary but when I took the plunge I about died all I could think of was that I let my 3 year old 27 lb little fireball go on this ride, what in the HECK was I thinking. When I got to the bottom she asked to go again. Maybe it is because her older siblings never think twice about being scared of anything, not always a good thing. Jeremy came in on Thursday and it was so good to have him there. He has been working a ton but loves the job and is doing really well. The Provo parade was cute and the floats were way better than I thought. I love the feel of the small town parade. All in all the trip was really fun lots of late game nights and tons of family time what more could we ask for.

So here is the story, I FINALLY got a cute blog it took me forever to fix it and I was so excited. About two days later I went on to post something on it and it was nowhere to be found. WHAT THE HECK. How is that for luck. So I am giving it one final effort. Please someone show me what this whole blog thing is about and how do people have time to do it all the time. I trying to catch the bug, but 4 crazy cut kids, a no where to be seen husband, and a busy calling are making the bug hard to catch. Any ideas anyone!!!!!! By the way we were supposed to be moving to Seattle in August but we get to stay for awhile. YEAH YEAH (for me) This had been a roller coaster ride that had to many loops and who knows when I am going to get off, but for now I will count my blessings. The kids are healthy and we have a job.